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Rock groups. Fiction.
Musicians. Fiction.
Bands (Music). Fiction.
Dating (Social customs). Fiction.
Preparatory schools. Fiction.
Schools. Fiction.
Cuban Americans. Fiction.
New York (N.Y.). Fiction.
Victoria Cruz, 15, has always done everything she needs to do to maintain her high GPA. She runs cross-country and track, but only because Harvard wants well-rounded students, and Harvard is the only option, as far as her Cuban parents are concerned. But Victoria has an active dream life, one with carefully curated playlists for everything she-s never done (-There-s a playlist for skinny-dipping, for sleeping under the stars-). Music is her secret passion, one she refuses to indulge until she meets 17-year-old Strand as he-s posting a notice seeking a lead singer for his band. With a nudge from her best friend, Victoria auditions for the band, and her boringly predictable life takes a dramatic turn. Milanes-s brisk and confident debut is ideal romantic reading. Though the plot is fairly typical, a robust supporting cast brings color and charm to a world that Victoria sees as all too ordinary, from bad boy Strand with his piercing blue eyes to almost-too-perfect bandmate Levi to Victoria-s strict but loving immigrant parents. Ages 12-up. Agent: Jane Dystel, Dystel, Goderich & Bourret (Sept.)
School Library Journal (Tue Aug 01 00:00:00 CDT 2017)Gr 9 Up-ictoria Cruz's parents expect her to go to Harvard. She attends prestigious Evanston Academy to study hard and score a scholarship. Her life is all laid out, a trail of future glory; at least, according to her hardworking Cuban immigrant parents. She appears to comply with overachieving expectations until she decides to join a band. She quickly overcomes stage fright and social reticence to become lead singer, and to date first one of two male band members and then the other. Herein lies a weakness of the book. Victoria's self-esteem centers around these boys and what they think of her. While dating the band's ultra-nerd, Levi, Victoria feels lost without his affirmation. It takes a while to realize that her heart actually belongs to gorgeous girl-magnet, Strand. Despite Strand's tendency to be a player, his character provides one of the book's strongest appeals. Teens will be charmed by his slick humor and by the depth of his character. Readers will laugh out loud at the witty repartee between Victoria and Strand, and the romance will draw in those looking for a sweet love story. Each chapter heading is a song title, creating an automatic playlist. Another positive plot element involves Victoria's increasing appreciation for her family's Cuban heritage, although its handling stays at surface level. VERDICT Fans of Rainbow Rowell's Eleanor & Park will appreciate this slightly off-kilter romance and its ready-made playlist.Melissa Williams, Berwick Academy, ME
Horn Book (Wed Aug 01 00:00:00 CDT 2018)Shy, obedient Victoria Cruz attends a NYC prep school on scholarship and works hard for grades that will one day get her into Harvard--her traditional Cuban American parents' dream for her. Secretly, though, she has started doubling as the lead singer in an indie rock band. Despite its harmlessly predictable plot, Milanes's charming, authentic characters make this an entertaining story of music and identity.
Kirkus ReviewsSick of playing it safe, straight-A sophomore Victoria Cruz auditions for a high school rock band and ends up falling for both the perfectionist bassist and the gorgeous guitarist.Fifteen-year-old Victoria, a middle-class scholarship kid at Evanston Academy, a posh Manhattan prep school, is tired of her routine life and her "overprotective Cuban parents," who desperately want her to get into Harvard. So she auditions to be the lead singer for Debaser, a school rock band made up of three diverse juniors: by-the-book bassist Levi (who's Jewish), "sex god" guitarist Strand (who's biracial), and rebellious, mohawked drummer Krina (who's Indian). With help from her Chinese-American bestie Annie, Victoria loosens up enough to earn the spot. Despite her obvious attraction to Strand and his "midwinter sky" eyes, inexperienced Victoria deems him too much of a player and accepts the advances of reliable Levi even though their sparks are tepid by comparison. The first-person narration thoughtfully explores the tension between Victoria's desire to please her well-meaning, hardworking immigrant parents and her need to be more adventurous. Although the love triangle is predictable (there's little debate about which guy is the better fit for Vi), the debut offers an endearing, fast-paced read with a realistically sweet, if sheltered, first-generation-American protagonist. Appealingly imperfect Victoria makes this an enjoyable and humorous music-fueled coming-of-age story. (Fiction. 12-16)
ALA Booklist (Fri Sep 01 00:00:00 CDT 2017)Music was always Victoria's secret passion, a fantasy that would never be fulfilled due to her paralyzing stage fright and overprotective parents. Pushed by her best friend Annie, after seeing a flyer at school, Victoria spontaneously tries out for a band d gets the part of the lead singer. Now Victoria has to decide whether to stay on the path that her parents have planned for her go to Harvard to follow her passion of music. Many adolescents will be able to relate to Victoria's plight, which is supplemented by a quirky cast of well-developed characters. Milanes' debut is punctuated by song recommendations at the beginning of each chapter, complementing the events of Victoria's life throughout. Though the novel is a bit slow at the start, once Victoria becomes part of the band, the evolving romantic tension and Victoria's growing confidence will keep readers invested. Victoria's ability to conquer her own fears in this coming-of-age story might inspire adolescents to follow their own dreams.
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Chapter One
"YOUR BEST AMERICAN GIRL"
--MITSKI
I can predict my life with scary accuracy. I know my morning will start with a piece of toast for breakfast, slathered in peanut butter and topped with sliced banana. After breakfast I'll get on the downtown A train and put on a perfectly timed playlist for my twenty-three minute commute to school. I'll meet my best friend, Annie Lin, at my locker, and we'll go to first period with Mr. Davis and stare at his mustard-yellow pit stains for forty-five minutes. I'll have cross-country practice after school, where Coach B will make us run six miles along the murky Hudson River. At home, Mom will make spaghetti for dinner, and my bratty little brother, Matty, will complain that the tomato sauce is too chunky.
I'm not psychic. My life is just that boring. Every day moves like a treadmill, a straight line without fluctuation.
I shouldn't complain. I know it could be much worse. But when I really think about it, I realize that every day of my life is exactly the same, and it'll continue to be the same as it was yesterday, and the day before that, until the end of high school.
Until, suddenly, it isn't.
Across a sea of plaid uniforms on the opposite side of the sophomore hall, I see him, and the treadmill that is my life comes to a grinding halt.
"Hello?" Annie snaps her fingers at me. Her black hair is swept off her forehead by a satin headband that perfectly matches her pleated skirt. "What's with the face?"
"What face?" I reply. I have no awareness of what my face is doing. You know how in movies, when a girl sees a halfway-decent-looking guy and all of time stops and this wah wah indie song plays and it's so dumb because she doesn't even know the guy and that never happens in real life?
"You're blushing," Annie says with a frown, following my gaze.
It happens to me when I see this boy. Cue the soft, strumming guitar, the thumping drums, an airy falsetto in the background.
He's stapling a flyer onto the bulletin board, and when he lifts his arms to push into the stapler, I catch a glimpse of what I imagine to be soft cotton boxer-briefs peeking out from his pants. With his slouchy posture and tangled hair, he looks nothing like the preppy breed usually found at this school. He's . . . messier. Different. And yes, indisputably gorgeous, but that's not the point.
Annie thrusts her watch into my field of vision, effectively blocking my view of the pretty boy. "Helloooo. We're going to be late."
This is Annie's mantra. She's punctual to a fault, while I'm in no rush to snag a front row seat for Mr. Davis's underarm sweat.
"I'll meet you there," I say, blinking myself awake. "I forgot something in my locker."
"What did you forget?"
"My, um . . . snargenblag," I mumble.
"Your what?"
The warning bell shrieks overhead, which sends Annie into a panic. "Come on, Vi!"
"Go ahead. I'll meet you there," I assure her, and she gives me a final disapproving scowl before hurrying to math.
All at once the hallway drains as students swarm to their first period classes, but the boy doesn't rush. As he steps back to admire his handiwork, I inch toward him. I'm not entirely sure what my master plan is, but I have to know what's on this flyer. I have to know more about him.
He turns his head and looks right at me as soon as I reach him, like I tripped a sensor.
Holy sweet Jesus, his eyes. Those were unexpected. His eyes are the stuff of those Harlequin romances Mom reads, the kind of eyes that are always compared to something cheesy, like a midwinter sky. Annie and I used to sneak the books into my room and pore over passages about tight breeches and ripping bodices.
The thing about this boy's eyes, though? They are the color of a midwinter sky, which I didn't think was possible in reality.
"Do you sing?" His voice echoes through the empty hallway.
I stare at him, my brain officially a useless lump. "Huh?"
Ugh. Get a freaking grip, Victoria. I'm not one to turn into a puddle of idiocy when I see a cute guy. I'm better than that. Usually.
He nods toward the flyer he's posted. It's simple--black Sharpie against stark white computer paper. In large block print it says:
LEAD VOCALIST WANTED.
MUST HAVE A DECENT VOICE AND GENERALLY NOT SUCK AS A HUMAN BEING. BAND WILL PERFORM AT THE BATTLE OF THE BOROUGHS IN THE SPRING. MUSIC TASTE SHOULD BE ECLECTIC.
PLEASE E-MAIL LEVI.SCHUSTER@EA.ORG FOR AUDITION INFORMATION.
"Oh," I manage, brilliantly. I can't process the fact that a school like Evanston has other people like him, people who do things besides study and play lacrosse and run for student council. "Um . . . no."
"Maybe you should try." He twirls his stapler around and snaps it shut with one hand like some pistol-packing cowboy. It's weirdly hot.
The final bell rings. He and I are officially late for class, but neither one of us moves.
I should fess up at this point. I should let him know that I am way too boring to be a lead singer. I should let him know that I can barely speak, let alone sing, in front of people. I should also let him know that there is no way, under any circumstances, my overprotective Cuban parents would let me join a band.
"Okay," I blurt out instead of these important things he should know. Then, without another word, I bolt.
* * *
Mom studies me as we sit around the dinner table that night. "You okay? You look pale."
"I'm fine." I twirl some overcooked spaghetti noodles around my fork and silently refuse to go into any more detail. It's helpful to remember my Miranda rights when it comes to dinner with my family. Anything I say can and will be used against me.
"Are you sick?" Matty asks me, his eyes lighting up with interest. "Are you gonna puke?"
"Eat your food," Dad tells him.
Matty pokes at his pile of noodles. "I think I'm sick too."
We all ignore him. Matty will do anything to get out of eating dinner, unless it's one of the three meals that he tolerates: mac and cheese, pizza, or peanut butter sandwiches (no crust, hold the jelly). Sameness doesn't seem to affect him yet. Actually, he thrives on it.
"Maybe I'll make you a doctor's appointment," Mom says to me.
"I'm fine, Mom. Really."
"You don't look fine."
"I just have a lot on my mind."
"Are you depressed?" Mom asks, her voice rising. She eyes me with intensity. Ever since I bought a vintage Nirvana T-shirt last week, Mom has been on teen suicide watch. It's ridiculous.
"Of course she's not depressed," Dad says, speaking right through me. "What does she have to be depressed about?"
"Can I have a sandwich?" Matty asks. He pushes his plate away in disgust.
"You can eat spaghetti like the rest of us," Mom informs him.
"But I don't like spaghetti."
Dad points his fork at me. "Did you eat any dairy today?"
"Dairy?" I echo. I'm not fully here at the dinner table. I've been replaying the scene with the blue-eyed boy all day, wishing I had said something smarter, or funnier, or anything at all. I should have at least asked him his name.
"Yes. Dairy," Dad says. "Maybe at breakfast?"
Since he found out he was lactose intolerant, Dad believes dairy to be the root of all evil. In his opinion, it's the underlying cause of every malady known to man. He can't even look at a cow without a vein popping out of his neck.
"I had toast for breakfast," I reply absentmindedly.
He scratches the stubble on his chin. "What about lunch? You're always eating pizza for lunch."
"I'm making an appointment with Dr. Ferber," Mom decides.
"Fine," I concede, hoping it will shut them both up.
Of course it doesn't. Nothing does.
"I know you all insist on eating dairy," Dad continues, "but it's been linked to heart disease, diabetes--"
"Mrs. Soldera told us that milk is good for your bones," Matty pipes up.
"Mrs. Soldera is an idiot."
"Jorge . . . ," Mom cautions, pouring herself a glass of wine.
"Whatever." Matty's ten-year-old body heaves a weary sigh. "Can I have dessert now?"
We go through this every night. Practically word for word.
Mom closes her eyes and massages her forehead. "Matty, you didn't even touch your dinner. Jorge?"
"Eat your dinner, Matty," Dad says automatically. He's already wolfed down his entire plate of spaghetti, sopping up every drop of sauce with a bread roll.
"At least ten more bites," Mom adds.
"But the sauce is too chunky!" Matty slams his fist against the table, and my parents go bug-eyed.
"Ten cuidado," Dad warns. "Listen to your mother or you'll go to bed hungry."
They continue to argue back and forth, Matty trying to haggle his way out of dinner and Mom and Dad crushing each attempt. In about ten minutes one of them will cave and fix him a sandwich. This is the Cruz family dinner experience, every night at seven.
I stare down at my fork and contemplate sticking it through my eye.
Excerpted from The Victoria in My Head by Janelle Milanes
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A shy, rule-following teen winds up joining a local rock band in this laugh-out-loud, heartfelt coming-of-age novel.
Victoria Cruz inhabits two worlds: In one, she is a rock star, thrashing the stage with her husky voice and purple-streaked hair. In the other, currently serving as her reality, Victoria is a shy teenager with overprotective Cuban parents, who sleepwalks through her life at the prestigious Evanston Academy. Unable to overcome the whole paralyzing-stage-fright thing, Victoria settles for living inside her fantasies, where nothing can go wrong and everything is set to her expertly crafted music playlists.
But after a chance encounter with an unattainably gorgeous boy named Strand, whose band seeks a lead singer, Victoria is tempted to turn her fevered daydreams into reality. To do that, she must confront her insecurities and break away from the treadmill that is her life. Suddenly, Victoria is faced with the choice of staying on the path she’s always known and straying off-course to find love, adventure, and danger.
From debut author Janelle Milanes comes a hilarious and heartfelt tale of the spectacular things that can happen when you go after what you really want.