This Is What It Feels Like
This Is What It Feels Like
Select a format:
Publisher's Hardcover ©2018--
To purchase this item, you must first login or register for a new account.
HarperCollins
Annotation: A band contest forces a once-aspiring musician to make peace with the consequences of a friend's heavy drinking and the harsh realities of the disparity between the futures they imagined and how things really panned out.
 
Reviews: 4
Catalog Number: #170365
Format: Publisher's Hardcover
Publisher: HarperCollins
Copyright Date: 2018
Edition Date: 2018 Release Date: 11/06/18
Pages: 394 pages
ISBN: 0-06-249423-6
ISBN 13: 978-0-06-249423-8
Dewey: Fic
Dimensions: 22 cm.
Language: English
Reviews:
ALA Booklist (Thu Nov 01 00:00:00 CDT 2018)

Redemption and healing lie at the heart of this earnest, realistic novel about friendship. Hanna, Dia, and Jules were best friends and bandmates, torn apart in their sophomore year of high school by Hanna's drinking and Dia's impending motherhood. After graduation, the three former friends forge a détente to enter a music competition run by their heroes. Along the way, they work to heal their friendship and move into new phases of their lives that include developing new loves, gaining independence, and letting go of demons. This story covers a lot of territory ief, heartbreak, coming out, teen motherhood, love, sobriety, and parental relationships t manages to incorporate all of those issues naturally and without overshadowing the core of the book, which is the friendship between the bandmates. Readers will also appreciate that the band is not just a plot device to create high stakes; the characters care deeply about their music and work hard at their craft. Recommended for teen collections where realistic fiction is popular.

Horn Book (Mon Apr 01 00:00:00 CDT 2019)

During sophomore year, Dia, Hanna, and Jules were best friends and bandmates, yet alcoholism, pregnancy, and a death caused the trio's friendship to fall apart. After graduation, the girls piece back together their friendship to compete in a band talent contest. Chapters alternate among the girls' points of view, showing how each comes into her own in this heart-filled new-adult novel about the value of friendship.

Kirkus Reviews

Three indomitable young Californian women graduate high school while grappling with friendship, love, and living authentically.They were best friends and they made music together, a "weird mix of punk and grunge and R&B": Hanna, who is white; Juliana, a brown-skinned Bajan lesbian; and Dia, a copper-skinned girl with natural curly hair who has a baby. The prologue offers a taste of their former life, but by Chapter 1, the band is no longer, and Jules and Dia are estranged from Hanna, whose excessive drinking made her family and friends lose faith in her. Jules and Dia don't know that Hanna went to rehab and has been sober for over a year. So when the Sun City talent search contest announces prizes that would mean the world to all three of them, Dia is reluctant to agree with Jules that they can only enter with Hanna. Will they be able to rebuild trust, put their resentment from past mistakes to rest, and make the music they know is in their hearts? While the action builds slowly at first, readers will root for all three characters, who are featured in alternating chapters, as they navigate complex relationships—Hanna's guilt and anger at home, Jules' budding romance, and Dia's resistance to love because of past tragedy.A realistic, impassioned portrait of young women coming into their own in all their messy glory. (Fiction. 15-18)

School Library Journal (Mon Oct 01 00:00:00 CDT 2018)

Gr 8 Up-ia, Jules, and Hanna just graduated from high school. They were in a band together when they were sophomores, but they had a falling out. In the meantime, Dia has had a baby and Hanna has gone to rehab. When a local band competition announces a juicy prize, they decide to get the band back together. In order to make this happen, they need to deal with some of the issues that made them break up in the first place, especially Hanna's past self-destructive behavior. Each of the three young women has a subplot on their way to the band competition: Dia is in love with Jesse but is terrified that he will die (like her daughter's father did); Jules has just ended an unhealthy first relationship and is finding new love with Autumn; and Hanna is working to earn trust back that she lost while she was drinking. Music becomes the catalyst for them to focus on what is most important in their lives. The conclusion is happy but realistic. Ultimately, this is a story with a diverse cast of young women taking charge of their own destinies and taking risks when they are ready to take them, without compromising to those who might not understand. VERDICT A fun girl-power novel for teens who like their rock hard and their main characters tough. A good choice for YA collections. Kristin Lee Anderson, Jackson County Library Services, OR

Reviewing Agencies: - Find Other Reviewed Titles
ALA Booklist (Thu Nov 01 00:00:00 CDT 2018)
Horn Book (Mon Apr 01 00:00:00 CDT 2019)
Kirkus Reviews
School Library Journal (Mon Oct 01 00:00:00 CDT 2018)
Word Count: 87,584
Reading Level: 4.6
Interest Level: 9-12
Accelerated Reader: reading level: 4.6 / points: 13.0 / quiz: 514739 / grade: Upper Grades

This tender story of friendship, music, and ferocious love asks: what will you fight for, if not yourself? You Don’t Know Me But I Know You author Rebecca Barrow’s next book is perfect for fans of Katie Cotugno and Emery Lord.

Who cares that the prize for the Sun City Originals contest is fifteen grand? Not Dia, that’s for sure. Because Dia knows that without a band, she hasn’t got a shot at winning. Because ever since Hanna’s drinking took over her life, Dia and Jules haven’t been in it. And because ever since Hanna left—well, there hasn’t been a band.

It used to be the three of them, Dia, Jules, and Hanna, messing around and making music and planning for the future. But that was then, and this is now—and now means a baby, a failed relationship, a stint in rehab, all kinds of off beats that have interrupted the rhythm of their friendship.

But like the lyrics of a song you used to play on repeat, there’s no forgetting a best friend. And for Dia, Jules, and Hanna, this impossible challenge—to ignore the past, in order to jump start the future—will only become possible if they finally make peace with the girls they once were, and the girls they are finally letting themselves be.


*Prices subject to change without notice and listed in US dollars.
Perma-Bound bindings are unconditionally guaranteed (excludes textbook rebinding).
Paperbacks are not guaranteed.
Please Note: All Digital Material Sales Final.