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Teacher-student relationships. Juvenile fiction.
Piano. Performance. Juvenile fiction.
Teacher-student relationships. Fiction.
Piano. Performance. Fiction.
Starred Review Salaysay's debut novel beautifully explores topics not often addressed in YA fiction: the insular, often rewarding pressure-cooker world of young classical musicians, and the all-important, sometimes fraught dynamic of the student-teacher relationship. Even more extraordinary, she sensitively portrays the power dynamics of race, class, and sex within that relationship. Seventeen-year-old Claire Alalay is the reserved only child of Filipino immigrants. Her father's death five years earlier has left her mother in a dizzying depression, clinging desperately to the comfort of church groups. Claire spends most of her time at the piano, trying to fulfill her father's dream that she become a concert pianist. Claire is accepted as a student of San Francisco pianist Paul Avon, whose methods bring her tremendous musical growth, and she transfers her affection to the handsome musician. When Avon takes advantage of Claire sexually, she realizes she has to break off her involvement t will that mean sabotaging a promising career? Salaysay gets so much right, including the difference between public school in middle-class, heavily Asian Fremont and the rarefied, primarily white private-school world of San Francisco. Claire's need for affection and acceptance leads her into entirely believable and utterly sad encounters, while the strength she musters carries her through to an uplifting conclusion.
School Library Journal Starred Review (Sun Mar 01 00:00:00 CST 2020)Gr 9 Up-The only time 17-year-old Claire Alalay truly feels like herself is when she is playing piano. The rest of the time seems divided between awkward social interactions; scrutiny from her traditional Filipino mother and an army of aunts; as well as the desperate need for approval, acceptance, and love. Hoping that success in competition will increase her scholarship chances and get her into a better school, she auditions for Paul Avon, a revered but notoriously difficult piano teacher. When Paul agrees to teach Claire, her world opens wide and comes into clear focus. Practicing constantly, she becomes obsessed with the music, and with Paul, seeking his seemingly impossible approval and affection. At its heart, this is a coming-of-age novel and in that regard it succeeds quite nicely, but it also delves into other, more significant areas as well. It is a novel of acceptance as Claire tries to navigate a different sort of social circle at the expense of past relationships and expectations, and the consequences when desire for validation becomes obsession. It is also a novel of sexual awakening. In her debut novel, Salaysay does an excellent job of exploring all these facets and handles them with a sense of honesty and realism that allows Claire to shine as a fully-realized, completely believable character who will resonate with older teens. Be aware there are some fairly strong sexual situations if that is a consideration for purchase. VERDICT An excellent coming-of-age story with strong, believable characters and situations. Erik Knapp, Davis Library, Plano, TX
Horn BookClaire Alalay, a seventeen-year-old aspiring concert pianist, convinces her mother to hire respected music teacher Paul Avon. Claire throws herself into practicing and is captivated by her handsome mentor, craving his approval and beginning to excel under his demanding tutelage. But the older man also takes advantage of her innocence and need for acceptance, and after he sexually assaults Claire, her eyes are opened to their unhealthy dynamic. Salaysay's debut is an exploration of power -- and how it manifests between a student and teacher across class, gender, and culture (Paul is white; Claire is Filipina). The unfolding of the plot, if languid, builds tension and allows for deep character development; and Salaysay's writing is fluid and evocative. Teens will recognize Claire's desire for acceptance, profound grief, and drive to succeed at something she loves. The book's ultimately heartening ending will empower young people and give them hope that gradual recovery from trauma is possible.
Kirkus ReviewsA high school student pursues musical excellence and experiences the high cost of gaining her piano teacher's favor.Seventeen-year-old Claire Alalay dreams of attending a college where her love of classical music will not distance her from her peers. She knows that tuition at her top choices is too high for her and her widowed mother to afford. After her guidance counselor suggests that she participate in music competitions, which would enhance her college applications and potentially lead to scholarships, Claire seeks instruction from Paul Avon, one of the best piano teachers in the Bay Area. Paul maintains high standards for his students; though Claire strives to satisfy Paul's expectations, her best efforts are not always enough, and she becomes increasingly sensitive to his critiques. Salaysay captures the mindset of a girl steeped in self-consciousness, craving praise while expecting criticism, torn between fitting in and just being herself. The leisurely paced plot allows tension to build slowly, almost imperceptibly, until things take a troubling turn in the second half of the book and Claire becomes a victim of sexual assault. The writing is poetic in the moments when Claire reflects on the music she hears and plays. Her vivid descriptions convey a deep appreciation for the genre that will resonate with readers. Claire is Filipina; Paul is white.A cautionary tale that pays tribute to the allure of classical music. (Fiction. 16-18)
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I've done everything I could to make Paul Avon like me. I listened to every sonata and concerto and prelude and fugue and fantasy I could for a whole week before my audition. I packed a change of clothes and my toothbrush so I could freshen up right after school before I left for the train. Resprayed down my primary cowlick with hair spray. Checked my shoes for gunk. There isn't anything left to do but be myself, which honestly doesn't seem like enough.
"Paul's very good. One of the best in the area," my piano teacher said at our last and, I hope, final lesson. "But he's definitely not the teacher for everyone. He's picky. Hard to please."
I'm on the BART train to San Francisco, where he lives, Liszt and friends leaning against my thigh in my backpack. I didn't know what to bring, so I'm bringing what seems like the whole canon. The houses slide past the window, fading in color as the light fails. Then down, down underground, where the train starts a high-pitched scream as it descends under the bay. We're underwater. I know this is supposed to be normal -- everyone in here looks calm -- but I white-knuckle it. All I can think about is the tunnel collapsing and filling with water.
If it weren't for college applications, I would never have gotten up the nerve to come. My guidance counselor was the one who suggested I try piano competitions. It was at my first one -- I went alone, in case I had a breakdown -- that I heard Paul's name.
Everyone -- guidance counselors and science teachers and basically every auntie who comes to the house -- expects me to have a bright future.
"You need to shine," Tita Alta said at dinner after one of mom's prayer groups. "Grades aren't enough for the Ivies or good scholarships."
My mother said something in Tagalog, and Tita Alta nodded. Another family friend touched Tita Alta's shoulder to get her attention. "Didn't your daughter was homecoming queen?" she asks. Her English is very Filipino.
Tita Alta nodded. "Nag-aaral siya sa Princeton. Third year."
Awed looks, all around the table.
Princeton. The only thing I knew about Princeton is that F. Scott Fitzgerald went there. But I looked into it and it doesn't seem to be an artsy place. Not for me.
By the time I get off at Civic Center, it's four thirty. Rush hour. It smells different here, of mildew and ice. Preppies on bicycles act suicidal, weaving themselves into the car lanes. Women in heeled booties and skinny jeans stare hard in front of them, talking into the air, phones in hand. I check my own phone, read a map, and find my way uphill, toward Alamo Square. Homeless people on park benches. People wearing camping gear like it's high fashion. Even though San Francisco is considered diverse, there are still many more white people here than at home. But there are so many kinds of people here -- glamorous and poor, tailored and casual -- that I feel anonymous. No one seems to pay any attention to me.
Past the museums, past city hall. The store signs are smaller compared to at home, and not so garishly lit. Cakes, anointed with whipped--cream pompadours, fill a shop window. Another store sells seashells, coral. The houses become flouncy. The air is so wet, it feels like a cloud is seeping through my clothes, like it's going to rain, even though it's May already. San Francisco has its own weird seasons. I haven't been here much, but it's always colder than at home.
I turn a corner onto a postcardish street, with cheerful candy-colored houses of pastel and lace. I know which one is his before I read the address because I hear Chopin doing his bright best, gushing out the first-floor window of a cherry-ice-cream-pink house. Prelude no. 1. It instantly puts me at ease.
I should knock, but instead I look at my feet, listening. My shell of a heart has creaked open. He plays like it's burbling out of him, all gushy and sudsy, like he has to restrain the notes from coming out all at once. It almost makes me forget how nervous I am. That I'm not supposed to be here. My mother, who has no idea where I've gone, feels miles away.
I feel a little bad I didn't tell her, but I know she just would've made me even more nervous if she'd come with me.
The prelude ebbs away, over before I wish it to be, and I knock.
"Hello!" Paul says through the open window, his face hidden. I'm surprised how normal he sounds. "Can you wait outside? Just finishing up here."
"Okay," I call, probably too loud.
I sit on the steps, listening, pulling my socks back up -- the elastic has blown, and they've been sliding into my shoes the whole way over. The music starts again like a blaze. It sounds so ridiculously good, I want to laugh. He makes it seem easy. Not for the first time, I wonder if I should even have come.
I get absorbed in my phone, and soon the door opens. A girl with blond hair in a loose bun and a navy peacoat with the collar turned up waves at me, then takes the handful of steps in a jump. I'm stunned. That was her playing. She looks like a J.Crew model. And she looks my age.
"You must be Claire," says Paul, the words flowing out glycerin--smooth. He has an earnest, curious expression. Shots of gray in his thick sandy hair. Even though he has
glasses on, I can see how startlingly blue his eyes are. They're curved like apostrophes, downward over sharp cheeks. I shake his offered hand. It's soft and warm, without calluses. "You need tea, I think. You look cold," he says.
I hide my hands in the pockets of my hoodie and follow him into the house. He isn't wearing any shoes, just black argyle socks. "It's warmer at home."
"Where did you come from?"
"Fremont."
"All the way out there?" He walks deeper into the house, leaving me standing in the hallway.
Bookshelves stretch all the way to the ceiling, filled with sheet music, their tall, recognizable spines -- ivory Peters editions, goldenrod Schirmers, and evening-blue Henles -- lining most of the three walls, casting the room in a greenish, underwater glow. The fourth has a large picture window, curtained to protect the pianos -- Steinways, both of them baby grands, their curved bellies facing each other, wings folded. The brown one is weathered and scratched. The other gleams a black ebony. On the shelf behind it is a bruised violin case, and in the corner sits a small glass writing desk. Two low-slung chairs face each other in the middle of the room with a table between them.
I sit down in one of them and it puts me in a slouch, my feet dangling like a child's, so I sit back up again, balancing on its edge and touching the floor with my toes.
"I hope you like cream and sugar. I took the liberty." He hands me a mug, sets a plate of cookies on the table, and settles into his chair, looking at me like I'm a strange bird. He cradles his mug close to his chest, his fingers looking impossibly long, stretched over the curve of the cup. Paul is rangy, wearing loose pants, his shirttail out. "So, Fremont. What's that like?"
"Pretty boring." Fried chicken places next to drugstores next to Indian chaat houses next to pho spots next to grocery stores. And behind it, bland hills.
"Really? That's too bad."
"I guess so." The first sip of tea burns, but I try not to let it show, swallowing quickly. If he knows I've scalded my tongue, I can't tell, but his eyes are sharp and dead on me, so I'm guessing he does.
"You must be Filipino, then."
I shrug a yes. I don't see why that matters.
"And you'd like to play more seriously?"
"Well, I'm no prodigy. This is just, you know, for school. Scholarships and stuff." An answer grown-ups would understand.
"You know it isn't easy, teaching people if they aren't serious about it. It's not just about playing fast or the right notes -- you have to really want it in order to truly play well. To be an artist. And if you're just doing everything you can to get into college -- chess, horseback riding, volunteering with veterans -- all that, then maybe this isn't for you." His eyes wrinkle behind his glasses as if to soften the criticism.
"I don't do any of those things."
"Sorry about that last bit. I didn't mean to be harsh."
"I do want this."
"Why?"
I feel my burnt tongue. "Because playing feels beautiful." The last word is hard to say. No one says that word at school, and I don't say it to anyone. I can't remember the last time I've said it, and here I am, saying it, all cheesy.
It's true though. Songs don't feel like they really die. They feel like they just go back where they came from. And when I play, it's like I'm a part of that.
His eyes don't leave mine. I get the sense he's drinking me in, along with his tea. He must be thinking about walking me right out the door.
Excerpted from Private Lessons by Cynthia Salaysay
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In a standout debut for the #MeToo era, a young pianist devotes herself to her art — and to the demanding, charismatic teacher she idolizes.
After seventeen-year-old Claire Alalay’s father's death, only music has helped her channel her grief. Claire likes herself best when she plays his old piano, a welcome escape from the sadness — and her traditional Filipino mother’s prayer groups. In the hopes of earning a college scholarship, Claire auditions for Paul Avon, a prominent piano teacher, who agrees to take Claire as a pupil. Soon Claire loses herself in Paul’s world and his way of digging into a composition’s emotional core. She practices constantly, foregoing a social life, but no matter how hard she works or how well she plays, it seems impossible to gain Paul’s approval, let alone his affection. Author Cynthia Salaysay composes a moving, beautifully written portrait of rigorous perfectionism, sexual awakening, and the challenges of self-acceptance. Timely and vital, Private Lessons delves into a complicated student/teacher relationship, as well as class and cultural differences, with honesty and grace.