I'm Not Supposed to Be in the Dark
I'm Not Supposed to Be in the Dark
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Henry Holt & Co.
Annotation: "Family secrets, broken friendships, spirit possession, and natural magic. This book will haunt you until the very end a... more
Genre: [Love stories]
 
Reviews: 4
Catalog Number: #361386
Format: Publisher's Hardcover
Publisher: Henry Holt & Co.
Copyright Date: 2023
Edition Date: 2023 Release Date: 05/09/23
Pages: 388 pages
ISBN: 1-250-78853-6
ISBN 13: 978-1-250-78853-5
Dewey: Fic
LCCN: 2022920241
Dimensions: 22 cm.
Language: English
Reviews:
School Library Journal Starred Review (Thu Jun 01 00:00:00 CDT 2023)

Gr 9 Up— Aria has always had magic around her. She even takes a special tea twice a day to keep her dreams from taking her over. However, on the eve of her senior year of high school, she misses drinking every drop of her tea and "envisions" the rosebush across the street turn to ash and tar only to see it happen in real life. This rosebush belongs to Derek, the boy who used to be her best friend, and leads her to reconcile her friendship with Derek as he abruptly stops giving her the cold shoulder. The reasoning? He is being possessed by a ghost. Aria's feelings grow stronger as she tries to help the real Derek solve the mystery of what has happened to him; will it be enough to get rid of the spirit inhabiting him? This novel features beautiful and whimsical writing that slowly reveals the magic and ghostly happenings around Aria and her friends and family. She has a hilarious and loyal friend, Briana, and while there is plenty of mystery and magical spookiness with the main story line, there are also many realistic high school scenes throughout including parties, AP Calc, and Aria getting grilled by her titi about college applications. The love story that blossoms, unlike the rosebush, is one that lights a fire on the page and will keep readers wanting a happy ending for all. Aria is of Cape Verdean and Filipino heritage. VERDICT A gorgeously written, supernatural fantasy that deserves a place in secondary libraries where romance, feelings, and magic are appreciated by teens.— Molly Dettmann

ALA Booklist (Wed Jul 05 00:00:00 CDT 2023)

Aria and Derek have been friends since they were babies. But two years ago, Derek just stopped talking to Aria. When Aria, who sometimes sees ghosts, has a strange vision of a rose bush dying in front of Derek's house, she starts to wonder if Derek really stopped talking to her or if there's another, more mystical reason for his silence. There are definitely signs he's not himself, and she starts to wonder if he might be possessed. Aria's grandfather, Lolo Jack, is well-known in the community for providing cure-alls and other magic, including a tea that stops Aria from seeing ghosts. But if he knows more about the spirits that plague her, he's not sharing. To learn the truth, she may have to stop drinking the tea and start seeing ghosts again, no matter how dangerous it is. This is Neilson's sophomore effort (Deep in Providence, 2022), and larger collections may want to have it on hand for their more literary-minded readers.

Kirkus Reviews

A Providence, Rhode Island, teen who sees spirits senses something supernatural is happening with her former best friend.High school senior Aria Cayetano, who is of Filipino and Cape Verdean heritage, drinks special tea concocted by her grandfather to dull her connection to the spirits she sees at night. Lately, she's also been secretly watching her neighbor and ex–best friend, Derek Johnson, who is cued Black, wondering where he mysteriously goes off to in the dark. When Derek suddenly starts talking to her again after two years of silence, Aria hopes it means their friendship can be repaired, but there's something different about him. She discovers he's being possessed by a spirit who sometimes takes control. Aria stops drinking her tea to uncover the extent of her abilities-which she'll need in order to save Derek, for whom she's developing feelings. This dreamy and ethereal story combines mystery and romance with the paranormal world of magic and spirits. It's atmospheric, evocative, and just the right amount of chilling. Patience is required of readers as the world slowly unveils itself, especially as Aria's family has many closely guarded secrets. Aria's detective work to discover the truth keeps the momentum going, but it's the examination of relationships and human nature that makes the book sparkle. The tale weaves in grief, empathy, and how far people will go to protect the ones they love.Lushly written and full of emotion. (Paranormal. 14-18)

Publishers Weekly

For as long as she can remember, 17-year-old Aria Cayetano has had to drink a special tea created by her Lolo to keep the ghosts she dreams about from infiltrating her waking life. After she spots her former best friend Derek Johnson wandering the neighborhood at odd hours, the rosebush that has continuously bloomed outside his house for more than two decades decays into foul-smelling sludge. As Aria digs deeper into the increasingly supernatural occurrences happening around her, recruiting sometimes reluctant friends and family members, Aria gradually realizes that the powers she’s been suppressing might be the only thing that can save Derek from a dark fate. The rekindling of Aria and Derek’s friendship, and their budding romance, is vibrantly depicted against haunting descriptions of ghosts and mortality, making for an intriguing juxtaposition of life and death. Through Aria’s sarcastic first-person narration—interwoven with her illuminating journal entries and eerie dream sequences—and a vivid portrayal of Providence, R.I., Nielsen (Deep in Providence) spins a slow-burn paranormal mystery that examines grief, damaging and healing relationships, and complicated mixed-race family dynamics. Aria is half Cape Verdean and half Filipino; Derek is described as having an “earthy complexion.” Ages 14–up. (May)

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Reading Level: 6.0
Interest Level: 9-12
Lexile: HL700L

"Family secrets, broken friendships, spirit possession, and natural magic. This book will haunt you until the very end and long after you finish." - Rachel Menard, award-winning author of Game of Strength and Storm & Clash of Fate and Fury "Neilson's sophomore novel is a haunting love story for the ages, perfectly layered and exquisitely told. " -- Buzzfeed From the author of Deep in Providence comes a paranormal young adult romance that follows a teen convinced that her best friend-turned-enemy is possessed by a ghost, perfect for fans of White Smoke and Twilight . Seventeen-year-old Aria Cayetano dreams of ghosts. She used to see them too, but thanks to a special tea brewed by her grandfather, Aria's connection to the spirit world has been severed. Until a decades old rosebush suddenly dies across the street, convincing Aria that something supernatural is happening in her neighborhood. She aches to investigate it, but the rosebush sits on her ex-best friend Derek Johnson's front lawn, and she can't question him because he hates her now. Aria doesn't know what drove them apart years ago, but she does know Derek's been acting strange for weeks, sneaking out in the dead of night to who knows where. Then, days after the rosebush dies, Derek begins speaking to her again. At least Aria thinks it's him. Until she discovers there's a ghost inside of Derek that will take his life if it doesn't find what it's searching for. As Aria and Derek race to uncover the mystery, another kind of magic takes them by surprise: love. But Aria has to decide how far she's willing to go to save Derek, especially when helping the ghost means tapping into whatever the tea has buried inside of her. Bone-chilling and spellbinding, I'm Not Supposed to Be in the Dark is an alluring ghost story that's about exorcising the past to find a future to believe in. "In Neilson's hands, a ghost story is never just a ghost story--teenage rebellion and friendship troubles are woven together with captivating imagery, compelling characters, and yes, ghosts . This book is a study in the lengths we will go to in order to protect those we love. A study in knowing when to let go and when to hold on--even if it means risking ourselves in the process." - Lillie Lainoff, author of One For All


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