"Keep it together, Tristan," he tells me quietly, putting a hand around my shoulder as his eyes search to make and hold a connection with my own, his fingers pressing tightly around my flesh, sending a current of electricity through me despite my grief; it's only the second time he's touched me since England--the first was when he helped to lift me off the floor of the deluged trench--and the only time he's spoken to me since the boat.
   "Keep it together, yes? For all our sakes."
   I step closer to him and he pats my arm in consolation, leaving his hand there longer than is necessary.
   "What did Rigby mean when he said he was sorry to hear about...well, he didn't finish his   sentence."
   "It doesn't matter," I say, moving forward in my grief to put my head down on his shoulder, and he pulls me to him for a moment, his hand at the back of my head, and I am almost certain that his lips brush the top of my hair but then Turner and Sergeant Clayton come into sight, the loud voice of the latter complaining about some new disaster, and we separate once again. I wipe the tears from my eyes and look at him but he's turned away and my thoughts return to my oldest friend, dead like so many others. I wonder why in God's name I ever went to look at Rich, Parks, and Denchley's bodies when I could have been in my foxhole all this time, grabbing a few minutes' sleep, and knowing nothing about any of this, nothing about home or Chiswick High Street, my mother, my father, Peter, or the whole bloody lot of them. "

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Excerpted from The Absolutist: A Novel by John Boyne
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