A teen boy finds himself after a tragic lossIranian American high schooler Kamran Khorramian's life is in upheaval. Two years ago, Kam's boyfriend, Ash Greene, who's cued white, disappeared during a camping trip in Joshua Tree National Park. Everyone, including Bodie Omidi, Kam's lifelong best friend (who's also gay and Iranian American), wants him to move on, but he just can't let go-not as long as he believes that Ash could still be alive. The narrative structure engagingly alternates between Kam's freshman and junior years. In freshman year, Kam and Ash meet and bond over a shared love of the music of Lana Del Rey, but Ash's unpredictable behavior makes their relationship hard. In junior year, Kam struggles with grief, racially charged ostracization, and figuring out his future. Kam also has to learn to cope with the impact of substance abuse in his family, finding support and understanding in Alateen during junior year. Both timelines converge in an emotional denouement. The storytelling relies heavily on Kam's amnesia surrounding the night of Ash's disappearance, which feels cliched, and the ending is sweet but feels tonally disparate from the rest of the book. Ultimately, however, many of the novel's elements come together to create a poignant and enjoyable whole that sensitively but honestly explores relationships, grief, identity, and addiction.A bittersweet and sincere coming-of-age story. (author's note)(Fiction. 14-18)