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Identity. Fiction.
Self-acceptance. Fiction.
Coming out (Sexual orientation). Fiction.
Lesbians. Fiction.
Mothers and daughters. Fiction.
Starred Review This poignant novel in verse tells of 11-year-old Stevie, an Irish girl who loves acquiring all kinds of knowledge. She's especially proud of her learning skills, so when she encounters matters for which she has no answers, her emotional world is turned upside down. One such topic is her recurring nightmares, which often seem to be triggered by school anxiety and her father's leaving. The other, more pressing subject is the confusing feelings she has for her friend, Chloe. What follows is a winter adventure of self-discovery and queer-identity questioning, with plenty of support from her single-parent Mum, her friend Andrew, and an unexpected ally of a librarian. Chapter headers use sea-themed typography to allude to Stevie's drowning emotional state as her story unfolds and she nervously learns about two great unknowns, the ocean and crushes. For a child so focused on tangible facts, this type of love is a puzzle, and this novel asks big questions about representation and the lifelong process of healing, exploring how a child can choose to come out when they have no queer role models. Grehan brings a likable voice to her young protagonist, and readers will be rooting for Stevie in all of her endeavors. A heartwarming and tear-provoking coming-of-age novel, brimming with empathy and a child's imagination.
Kirkus ReviewsAn Irish import offers a glimpse into the life of an anxious preteen who learns to accept herself and all the things she doesn't know.Stevie, 11, knows a lot of things. She knows how old whales live to be, she knows that her dad lives far away (but it's OK), and she knows Morse code is good for getting rid of nightmares. She likes knowing things; it makes her feel safe and in control. But there is one thing that Stevie doesn't know: Why does she get this funny feeling, all "warm and squishy," in her chest when she looks at her friend Chloe? Stevie is worried about these feelings and what her mum will think if she talks to her about them. So Stevie takes matters into her own hands to figure out what these feelings are and, maybe, how to make them a little less scary. This free-verse novel captures Stevie's feelings of worry with its precise use of language and repetition, which allows readers to empathize with her: "Usually when I ask my mum / Questions / Big or small or silly or smart / She gives me / Answers / Big or small or silly or smart / She wraps them up and hands them over / Like little presents / ⦠/ But this time / I think she forgot / To put the words in." Stevie's crush on Chloe is very naïve and sweet, making this coming-out tale one that is suitable for and accessible to middle-grade readers. Though this book is short, its impact could make a difference to a child struggling with anxiety or coming out to a parent. Characters assume a White default.An endearing LGBTQ+ novel perfect for middle graders. (Verse fiction. 8-10)
Starred Review ALA Booklist (Thu Apr 28 00:00:00 CDT 2022)
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I know a lot of things
About a lot of things
But the thing I know the most about
Is me
Stevie
I know that I am eleven years and two months old
And that my hair is brown
And my eyes are green
And I'm allergic to peanuts
I know I have a mum
Whose room is right next to mine
And that sometimes we tap and scratch on the wall at night
Morse code is good for scaring nightmares away
I know that
I know I have a dad
And I know that he lives far away
And I know that's not my fault
And I know that that's
OK
I know that I have a funny name
Because the doctors said my mum was going to have a baby boy
But then I popped out
A slimy wriggly baby girl
And she liked the name too much by then
So Stevie it was
And Stevie I am
I know I like the color purple
And things that sparkle
And science and books
And cats and stars and space
I know that I broke my pinkie finger once
And that now
It sticks out funny
I know I'm afraid of zombies and clowns
And not much else
I know I can be brave
But that sometimes it's hard
I know a lot
About me
There's only one thing
In the whole of me
That I don't know
It's something funny
It's in my chest
And sometimes my tummy
And always my head
It's a fizzy feeling
Warm and squishy
And it makes me blush
And it only happens
When I look at my friend
Chloe
And I don't know what it is
Exactly
Excerpted from Deepest Breath by Meg Grehan
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An accessible and beautifully written middle grade novel-in-verse by award-winning Irish author Meg Grehan about Stevie, a young girl reckoning with anxiety about the many things she has yet to understand—including her feelings about her friend Chloe. Perfect for fans of Ivy Aberdeen's Letter to the World, Star Crossed, and George.
Eleven-year-old Stevie is an avid reader and she knows a lot of things about a lot of things. But these are the things she'd like to know the most:
- The ocean and all the things that live there and why it's so scary
- The stars and all the constellations
- How phones work
- What happened to Princess Anastasia
- Knots
Knowing things makes Stevie feel safe, powerful, and in control should anything bad happen. And with the help of her mom, she is finding the tools to manage her anxiety.
But there’s one something Stevie doesn’t know, one thing she wants to understand above everything else, and one thing she isn't quite ready to share with her mom: the fizzy feeling she gets in her chest when she looks at her friend, Chloe. What does it mean and why isn't she ready to talk about it?
In this poetic exploration of identity and anxiety, Stevie must confront her fears to find inner freedom all while discovering it is our connections with others that make us stronger.